My skin tingles, a thousand pinpricks that prove that I’m still alive, even though I don’t want to be. It’s getting harder to put one foot in front of the other, to keep on keeping on. Life wasn’t supposed to be like this; it wasn’t what I planned. Fate had other ideas. I’m breathing, I’m… Continue reading Here You Can Rest
Yesterday
When you’re young your life is full of time and possibilities. You rush through each day, never worrying about tomorrow. Then one day you wake up and don’t recognise the person you’ve become or the life you’re living. Hopes, dreams and ambitions, once held so dear, are now nothing more than echoes, remnants of a… Continue reading Yesterday
I Loved You
I used to think we shared something special. That we mattered. Although I never found the courage to say the words. I loved you. Deluded as I was then. Deluded as I am now. I still do.
The Struggle
I still wonder how things ended up this way. Struggle with it and second guess myself, even though I know the answer. Things have changed. We’re older, our lives moved on. Sometimes I feel as if I dreamed the past, but then I find something from that time, and the memories come flooding back. On… Continue reading The Struggle
Unbecoming
I hate the person I’ve become, but I would have hated the person more if I’d stayed. I miss the things we shared, but I couldn’t play the game the others could. I wasn’t prepared to sell my soul; sycophantic behaviour is not a good look. It’s sad when this bitter and twisted version is… Continue reading Unbecoming
Pre-Job Interview Nightmare
Shit! It can’t be morning already. Reach out and violently silence alarm. Realize it’s bloody cold and rapidly retract aforementioned arm back under the duvet… Wake up in blind panic. Snatch clock from bedside table and realize I have an hour before my latest foray into hunting for work…another dreaded interview! Dive out of bed…and… Continue reading Pre-Job Interview Nightmare
Dust to Dust
She may be smiling; the life and soul of the party; everyone’s friend with not a care in the world, but inside she’s dying; her heart is a block of ice and the pain of the lie that is her life slowly eating away at her until all that will be left is a crumbling… Continue reading Dust to Dust
She Cries
I see you take a good look as she walks through the door. You’re surprised to see her in here again, aren’t you. After what happened. As she makes her way up to the bar she can feel the eyes on her. Nobody can believe that she’s really here. They never thought she’d have the… Continue reading She Cries
Nobody Knows
They all think it’s a laugh, the way I feel about you. They ridicule me, deride my thoughts and emotions. To them it’s all a game. They just don’t understand. Or won’t. I don’t know which it is. You mean so much to me. I can’t imagine my life without you. You’ve always been there… Continue reading Nobody Knows
The Mistake
She sat in the car staring blankly out at the world beyond the glass. Tears trickle down her face as the radio gently murmured a sad song somewhere in the distance. He sat next to her, his face showing concern. He longed to bring her body close against his and tell her that everything was… Continue reading The Mistake
I Grieve... 